A Change Of Mind
19 part 1

*One Month Later*

Let me catch you up.
Its been around ta month since i really spoke to cody, not that i really cared too much. But i speak to shawn all the time. Some may even consider us bestfriends. I think im starting to fall for him. Hard. Not by choice of course. I go through out my day waiting to talk to him. I dont exactly think he feels the same way about me, considering i have to talk to him first all the time but hey worse things have happened to me. Mandy got back together with her boyfriend but somethings different about her. We arent really talking that much anymore either. cheer still sucks. i hate prentending to be something im not. the girls on that team, man they sure do hate me. and i hate them too. just because im not cheerful and wonderful and have this amazing outlook on life they think im some kind of outcast. i just hope ill last a few more months on this team and pull through, i dont think ill be kicked off, i think im more like quiting. But i gotta keep trying. Jane and i well hm. i dont exactly know how to explain this one. Once mandy started ditching me for her boyfriend jane came around more. But im not completely fond of anyone but shawn right now, I just cant seem to shake this. welcime back.

I woke up feeling funny. i was tired but not lazily tired. everymorning i feel worse and worse. i get these pains in my stomuch but i ignore them. I got ready for school brushed out my hair touched up they parts i thought could be straighter and than got dressed. not to fancy i honestly have no one i need to impress.i threw on a black fitted vneck , a necklace, a pair of jeans and laced up my combat boots. I grabbed all my books and went downstairs. I saw the usual scene i see in the morning, mom making breakfast and vinny eating his brains out. once i grabbed my cheer bag we were out the door. we picked up donny and cody and i didnt say a word, just like everyday, the past month. we got to school and i walked in put all my stuff in my locker and found jane, we walked to out first periods since they were near each other like we did everyday. i went through school like a zombie. execpt for in science. with shawn. then i was legit alert as an infint. "hey jackie" i simply smiled back at the beautiful boy standing before me. i put my books down and we sat next to each other like we do everyday. it was about half through the period when shawn turned back to me "you know you have really beautiful eyes" my stomuch droped. i couldnt believe what i was hearing. "yours are too" i was looking directly into his ice eyes which with time seemed to warm. i liked them. since the second i met him i loved them.

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ugh i know what your thinking. and im sorry... AGAIN. i dont even know if this storys good anymore. no one reads it cause i never post lmao. but im not the worlds best writer and recently i had some people write nasty comments i had to delete on my profile. i know im not a professional at this, btu why tear me down for just trying something?