i think about him all the time .
and imagine all these crazy things .
where i just get my hopes shattered .
maybe i shouldnt have hopes .
maybe dreams are just made for dissapointment .
and reality is all the matters .
dreaming can just shut you down .
making you realize things you shouldnt .
pointing you in the wrong directions .
dreaming about him .
just makes me sad in the end .
it doesnt point me a direction ,
a direction only leading me back to him .
the one that hurt me and put me down .
made me sad , caused me to cry .
when we werent even together .
we were friends , and only that .
besides the leading on that would get me .
all the time .
crying over him isnt worth it .
all i have to do now , is lead myself to belive it .