inside the mind of a suicide♥
Chapter Four- The Note
"I should have died
months ago. I should have pressed harder when I wanted. I should
have walked into the middle of the road last month instead of
innocently got hit. It would have made so many people happy.
The people at school, the people at home.The only thing
I've ever wanted, is to be wanted. To be loved. By friends,
by a boy, by my family. I tried to be perfect, but something set
me apart. I dont know. Society is messed up. They told me I was
ugly, fat, ,waste of space. Eventually, I believed it. The
mirror.. it haunted me. Have you ever wondered why I wear long
sleeves? It's because of the deep scars. The scars there
because of the words everyone has said to me. I hate my life. I
always did. I can't believe that I've made it this long.
I don't know how. At first, I made it because of Lindsey. But
lately, me and her drifted.We hardly text, and I don't talk
at school. Every thing I say get's critized. Do you know what
it's like to be hated? To be called ugly, a woman, a lady of
the night. Madusa. Every single day? To be afraid to walk outside
because you don't want to hear it? I dread being home on
break, and I dread going to school. So what is my other option?
I'm really sorry. Kinda . I don't know whose going to
care once I'm gone. But, congratulations, everyone. This is
what you wanted. I hate myself. I'm done. Welcome, to my
life. You've been reading the truth from a suicidal girl.
REMEMBER LEE? Bullying pushed him and it pushed me too. I hope
you do something about it now. Mom, I'm sorry I never could
be perfect enough. I'm sorry I dissapointed you. And Greg,
I'm sorry I wasn't your real daughter. Now you are rid of
me, though. Everything is okay now. This is my goodbye. It's
time to escape. Now you know what goes on in the mind of a
suicide"
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_Shelovesyou · 1 decade ago
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Why is it so bad to be called a woman? :S I'm so confused..