my
name is ryen. and i'm
not afraid to let people know who i really am. i'm thirteen
years old, and i force myself to smile every single day. i force
myself to believe that i'm happy, when i waste an eternity just
wishing i had more. my dad is my hero, and i don't talk to my
mom. because some people you need to let go of; some people only
cause you pain. i have the most amazing friends in the world. and
they're the reason i'm capable of smiling. i've had my
experiences with self harm. majority of witty girls have. i live to
please. and to tell the truth, i'm so tired of it.. i'm
tired of trying to meet expectations, and to be here for
everyone else's happiness. my boyfriend is a typical
teenage boy. careless, and i'm probably his last priority. but
i like him too much to dump him. no. i'm not pathetic. i'm
just not strong enough. my best friend lives 1000 miles away from
me. which sucks.. i don't know if i've been in love. but i
know i've gotten my heart broken. i cry very easily, but not
one person on this planet would be able to tell. i'm so far
from perfect, and i'm incredibly insecure. i'm offended
easily, and really sensitive, but i act like i don't care. i
have a tendency of pushing people out of my life. i hate being
hurt. i hate fighting. i wasn't made to be such an unhappy
person. no one was. i'm helpess. i open up far too easily, but
on the other hand, i let no one in. and as you can tell, i'm an
extremely confusing person..
and my only wish is that life was easy. and that i was
happy.
i want to be happy. i'm learning
slowly. i promise.
if you read all of this, i love you.♥
share your
story. let everyone know who you really are.
my name is ryen. and i'm not afraid to let people know who
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Dec 29, 2011 7:17pm
x3missykrissyx3 · 1 decade ago
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Don't worry, we've all been there at one point. Stay strong:) <3