i'm so sorry i havent been on in awhile. school just gets in the way and i hardly have time anymore.
well anyways theres been a lot on my mind lately so im just going to let it all out..
him. hes amazing but i dont think im good enough for him. im a rat compared to him. 
i put a fake smile everyday.
im dying inside.
my world is crashing down yet no one sees.
its like im screaming but no one can hear.
im done crying myself to sleep. im done making me see my own blood. im done with all of this. im done. i just want to be happy. thats all.