Oh Abby Abby Abby ;

You have always been the number 1 lady in my life ,
I remember you coming up and telling me I had pretty eyes in grade 3 and we have been unseparable since.
Your mom has been calling me the past couple days since the furneral but I havent been able to answer her calls and im sorry , I feel so much remorse for everything thats happened and im still in so much shock that I cant bring myself to do it .. As I leaned over your casket and kissed you goodbye your mother came over and whispered " bad things happen to good people , it's not your fault you were my daughters hero "  .
How can I possibly believe that ?
Ryan stopped over yesterday he's about the only person I can talk to right now ,
he understands how I feel because he loved you just as much as I did ..
I have laid in his arms and cried for hours apologizing over and over again for taking you from him , he tells me its not my fault things happen but this never should have happened you and my mom should be here putting up our tree and drinking our faces off blasting the christmas cd that mom played every year since we were kids but insteand we had to lower you both into the ground .. baby girl your with me everywhere I go , I love you more then I love myself and I promise you that we will be together again , look after my mom for me , always and forever <3