Okay, girls, I'm scared,

Lately I've been thinking of my future, and how I feel about it.
It's like I'm at point A and I see point B as me in 20 years, married, with a job etc.
But I just don't see how I'll get there.

The simple thought of university scares me.

I'm a straight A student, everyone's expectations of me are high
But what if I'm not good enough?
I've been thinking of ending my life at 20.
That way, I'd have lived the best part of my life...
20, that's one quarter of your life.... But what happens after?
Who tells you how to apply for a job, pay bills or make the right decision?
I wanna tell someone, but no one's there to listen, my mum
expects me to achieve, me and my dad rarely talk, the school
don't think of kids like me and my friends think I have the perfect life.
Am I alone with feeling this?
If you read everything, I love you
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