Outcast
Since day one of school of
pre-K i've been the outcast. The one who follows
rules, the one who respects adults, the one with long
thick black hair and the tallest out of the group. I was
hates by my peers, not a single friend to the fifth grade,
but my peers werent
the only ones who hated
me, some adults had hated me. Second grade, a teacher who
told me i would never amount to anything. Fourth grade, a
teacher who hated me, nothing i did was right from the way i
walked, to the way how i talked, the way i knew things that
she didnt,
she always belittled me. The girl who loved
dragons, yu-gi-oh cards, and hated to wear skirts. The
girl who's smile always stayed hidden to prevent kids
making fun of her wavy ended teeth with the extremely large
canine teeth. The girl who hated to stay inside and loved to play
sports and be the only girl to play with the boys in
gym. Sixth grade, i was the only one to be yelled at
everyday, to be corrected everyday, to be humiliated everyday by
a teacher. The one friend i made, began to think she was better
then me, because the teacher would go "wilmarie got a 82 on the test and
megan got 100" and she began to treat
me like an idioit
and wouldnt
want anyone else to be my
friend. I told her i didnt
want to be her friend
anymore, and she cried and ran out of the room. The next day,
everyone was beating be up because "i screamed and yelled
and beat up megan" which i never did. Later that
day, her mom demanded me to go to their home along with my mom. I
went, and i was forced to apologize to her, and become her friend
again. As the years went on, the torment got worse, boys would
pretend to like me only to humiliate me or do it for money as a
dare. Then, high school came. I dressed nicely and all i heard
was "you do know thats
for skiny
people right?" My
long black hair was cut short or put into a pony tail when
possible, which was all the time. My sweet and kind nature hid
under a mad and gloomy outer shell. The so called friend who
treated me like a stupid person, still streated me this way, until, she got a boy
friend. The moment she got one, it was always
"wilmarie why dont
you lose a little weight,
then boys will be attracted to you" or "why
dont you wear tighter clothing or shorting
pants or something." The other friends i had, had boy
friends as well, and it was the same sh*t
that came from them. Everything was bad, everything was wrong.
And now summer is here, yet its still the same, being picked on
at work, hearing how i have to lose weight, how
i'm anti social.
Soicity looks down apon
the things that are weird
or strange, or demented
but we have yet to
realize that sometimes we create what we look down on.
My smile, holds a
frown.
My eyes, hold tears
forced to kept it and never let out,
My hateful shell, hold a
true kind nature
I'm hated for who
i truely am, but yet i'm
hated for trying to hide
it.
Even here i cant find any
sancuary.
This maybe long,
but its worth it.
I know
i'm not the only one with this
childhood.
Just so at least some
know my side of the story,
instead of keeping it all
hidden away.
2 faves · 1 comments · Jul 12, 2011 2:56pm
stephaniee2252 · 1 decade ago
HONESTLY....way to long to read.
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