you confuse me.  you    make    me    mad. you make me scream. you    make    me    happy. you make me cry. you    frustrate    me. you hurt me. you    heal    me. you make me dream. you    make    me    hope. you crush my hope. you    give    me    pain    everyday. the days i'm with you, you cure my pains. you    draw    me    in. you make me vulnerable. you    make    me    want    you. you make me hate you. i    wish    i    could    resist    you. you make me feel stupid. you    make    me    hate    myself    for    feeling    this    way    about    you ...
 

but the saddest thing is,

i'd rather be without you & see you everyday going through the same awful pain and pain again, than to never see you again.