its hard to shine when your burnt out.
due to everything in life because your hurt now.
youve failed so many times....so why try.
in this 18 years i think ive surpassed my 9 lives.
my entire life i have always struggled.
cant even hold a steady job its always been fumbled.
ive tumbled.
im disgruntled.
got all my emotions bundled.
been shaken up so much has all my feelings just jumbled.
i see that other side..will i ever stand i green grass.
ill keep on trying because i need to reach that.
i need to retrack.
i refuse to be passed.
i need to get a good life with no relapse.
a concept is what ive never been able to grasp.
but i need to be stable to grab.
im not going to let this table collapse.
i have to refrain from my past.
and gain from that crap.
and make sure i dont let the pain re attach.
its time to stop being a loser.
i should have never put down those text books pads and rulers.
so listen and learn as im telling my story.
i wish i could have seen that rebelling was boring.
life is just a big bag of tricks.
i should take life more seriously and live it passionate.
ill be the only person i know to not live in lavishness.
im sorry i should have listened.
i never thought id come out to be described as this description.
mom and dad i give you props.
sticking it out with me through all the cops.
the lost jobs the dissapointment the failing papers.
im so sorry mom i made you resort to extra inhaling your inhaler.
im so sorry dad for turning your beard so much paler.
im so sorry all you want is my best.
im so sorry for all the times ive disrespect.
i still cant believe you hadnt left.
but thats what good parents do they dont neglect.
if i could take it all back and do it overi would in a sec.
sit at my desk.
erect at the neck.
listen to every teacher as they speak there dialect.
study and keep doin it so i wouldnt forget.
finally get the green checks.
get em correct.
thats what i would do if i could take it back.
but this isnt an alternaive universe i cant take it back.
thats why you take advantage of what you got and make it last.
they say you dont know what you got til its gone.
i hated when they said that icant believe i thought mom and dad was wrong.
im going to try and kep trying til i achieve i hope that doesnt sound too dumb.
all i want to do is make mom and dad proud of their son.

IM SORRY..=[