Exhaustion. Extreme mental, emotional exhaustion .
When you can't even bother to think straight ,
& every last feeling left in your body
telescopes together into one unexplainable feeling .
My mind thuds and thinks a mile a minute ;;
my thoughts collide in a thousand different directions , and I lose myself .
Everything becomes a hazy blur , like the outside world doesn't exist .
I don't know what to think or feel &
I wanna smile & be happy and laugh but
all I can think of doing is crying into my pillows for hours but
I don't even have enough strength to cry
I completely lose myself.