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My
grandpa has Alzheimers. It's killing him. He doesn't know
my name. He doesn't know my mother. And he gets upset and
scared easily. Most people would have brought him to a nursing home
by now. My grandma promised me she would never. She always says
that she married him for better or for worse, and even if he's
worse right now, she's going to take care of him. A couple
weeks ago I saw my uncle yell at my grandma that he is so bad that
it's time to take him to a home. She refused. This went on and
on. And for the first time in my life, I saw my grandma cry. She
gave in. We're waiting until after Christmas, but she's
going to bring him to a home. He's going to hate it. I know it.
The only time he's happy is when he's with my grandma.
For the first time ever, I felt alone, and scared. I mean
I've obviously gotten upset before. But this is the first time
i've felt like there's no one who can understand. I want to
talk to someone. I mean, i've tried, but I always get upset
because they act like they know what I'm talking about, but
they really don't. They don't know what i'm going
through at all. I know it's not true but I keep telling myself
it's my fault, and that if he really loved me he wouldn't
have forgotten me. And that if he really loved me, he would still
love having conversations with me, instead of getting upset because
he claims he's never seen me before and he doesn't
wanna talk to me anymore. I cut myself for the first time
yesterday. I loved it. No body has been nice to me in a
while. Some of my friends have turned on me, and me and my
boyfriend get into fights like, every other day. I love him, but I
don't know. If I get atleast 20 likes/comments AND at least 30
people smile at me in the hallway in the next week, I
won't end my
life.
PLEASE
Please Read My grandpa has Alzheimers. It's killing him.
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Nov 8, 2010 6:57pm
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WittyPostSecrets · 1 decade ago
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If i could, i would give you 30,000 smiles in the hallway and 30,000 hugs. It may seem like everything's going wrong right now, but that's no reason to give up.
None of what's happening is your fault. Alzheimers is a disease that affects the memory; your grandfather isn't choosing to forget you.
Although cutting may feel good, its not the way to go. I understand your in pain, and if i could, believe me i would take away all the pain. You're young, and you have your whole life ahead of you. Don't give up, because your life is only just beginning.
My heart goes out to you,
-A