&& then i was strong. finally i could just sleep without the addition of tears. finally i can take a deep breath and really smile. finally there is no need to be fake about anything.

&& then you realize that you gave up on what you wanted most. finally you see that your still in love with me. finally you have to force the smile on your face when SHE comes around.

&&& finally we realize just because we have had hard times doesn't mean we aren't still in love. but yet you can't explain how bad it was when he left. and you show him how it feels.
[[ by leaving him & walking away and not looking back. just bc he is ready to be what we used to doesn't mean i will ever forgive him.]]