A Mean Cycle
part two. comment. don't know if its good. thanks for reading.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm in a box that seperates me from everyone else.There all on the outside but I'm trapped. I could be surrounded by millions of people and still be the most lonely person in the world. If I cried, and screamed people would just pass me by. I was never good at relating to people. Like if everyone was FM radio, I'd be AM. I used to think about what'd it be like if I died. Would people miss me for a few days, then forget about me. Would people who didn't like me feel bad, or throw a party? It seems like things happen when you least expect them, but what if you expected to die, or fall of the earth. Another day of waking up sweaty and shaken. This time I was sprawled out on the couch, from when I fell asleep there earlier. The dream was over and I was awake, ending at the exact 6;30 like always. My dad was in the kitchen making coffee, and he glanced over and smiled. We didn't talk much since my mom got in the accident. She left to get some food at the grocery store, and a drunk driver hit her car. She died on impact. It really messed up my dad, and to be honest I don't think I've ever been the same since then. "Hey, honey. I was just about to wake you. I was going to wake you up last night, to go upstairs but you looked so peaceful."
I choked back a sarcastuc laugh, I was anything from peaceful.
"Oh, well thats okay. I'm gonna go get ready."
He nodded, and hugged me since he had to leave soon. I walked up the stairs and went to my closet, grabbing a plaid shirt with mid length sleeves, and denim bermuda shorts. i threw it on, and went to fix my hair, keeping the curls down, as they fell to my shoulder. I applied some eyeliner, and a touch of mascara, grabbed my bag and head out the door. When I got to school, Kelsey and Mikayla were talking. They looked at me, like they were suprised I was here, and there conversation ended. "Hey, gals." They both halfheartly smiled. "Hey sams." They both said in sync. I sat down next to them and they stared at me, and then kelsey spoke up. "Sams, you've seemed off for a while. Are you okay? Me and Mikky, were just talking that maybe you were like mad at us or, um. ." I looked at her, but she didnt finish her sentence. "No, I'm not mad. Just haven't slept good that's all." They nodded in synce once again. I felt like I was missing something. Mikalya, me and Kelsey had grown apart over the years, well I have atleast, I always seeme dlike an outcats in this friendship, but they always were kind to me. My brain was racing trying to see if I did anything wrong. The bell rang, saving my thoughts as I walked into English. The only seat open was next to heartthrob, Tommy Daniels. My heart fluttered as I sat silently. I covered my face with my hands, and the teacher talked loudly about antonyms. I felt a soft poke, on my shoulder. "Hey, there." Tommy smiled his angelic smile, shining perfect white teeth, "H-Hi." He flipped his flowing deep brown hair that trimmed his eyebrows. "Your Sam right?" I nodded breathlessly. " Um I like your hair. Its pretty curly." I widened my eyes a little. "Thanks." he nodded. His hair bouncing flawlessly. The conversation stopped there, but I forgot all bout this morning, and remained floore dhe even talked to me.

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