It breaks my heart
to see him happy with
another girl...when he used to be the most happy when he was with
me. thats when he was the most beautiful. it breaks my heart to
him hug her..considering she was my best friend. he played me.
people tell me he didn't even like me as friend, a friend. i was
there for him, through everything and anything. i listened to
him, i helped him, i made him feel better. it really breaks my
heart knowing i fell for him, and still am (even though i don't
admit it) because my friends will call him nasty names, and
people will put him down. thats when he hits himself. he says it
doesn't hurt. the only time it hurt was when he hit himself
because he lost me. when he told me, i cried. we got through
everything together, and i wanted to get through this together
too but, its too late. he wont even talk to me anymore, nor look
at me. he seems happy, he acts like nothing happened. he
probably forgot about me, forgot about me. it breaks my
heart thinking i'm not good enough to be with him, since he is
always around other girls. i didn't know that when we used
to hang around my neighborhood. i remember the first cold night
he came over. he was searching for my house in 30 degree
weather...just to see me. you see, i thought ht loved me. me up
in his arms. i wont forget that feeling. just being in his arms,
or even when we hugged, i always loved being close to him. but
its all in the past now. none of it matters. i hate seeing him
go. i loved him so. i know he will never see this. i know
he never wants to talk to me again. and i know i made a
mistake in telling him that ending what we had was for the best.
yes i regret it, but he is probably having a wonderful life
without me. since he did forget me. but i'm going to be alright.
yes, i will shed a few tears now and then, but i'm going to
be alright...right? i don't think i ever will...since i told him
to leave my life, and now i feel miserable without him here. i
miss him like crazy. i try to talk to him but he ignores me. i
feel like crap now and i once thought of suicide, since he was my
whole life. i don't know anymore. i loved him.
true story </3
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love,gabrielle* · 1 decade ago
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hun</3 talk to me, or comment me.. we have a very similar story! i need some help please! im dying here!!! :'( </3