I miss you...

I miss being able to say I love you with all my heart. I miss being able to tell you everything. I miss being able to look at my phone and see your picture. I miss having someone to look forward to seeing everyday. I miss the way you used to grab my hand and never let go. I miss when we hugged. I miss the times we kissed. I will always miss you.

I hate how...
I hate that I miss you. I hate that i let you go. I hate seeing you everyday in the hallway and thinking back to what we had. I hate that we were so strong. I hate hearing your voice say I love you in my head. I hate those unkept promises. I hate how she got you. I hate that I love you.
I love you...
I love you more than anything. I love your smile. I love when you smile at me. I have when you just simply say "Hey Jess". i love how any word you say makes my day. I love how you make mistakes. I love how you're still perfect in every way. I love how you make me feel, as if nothing else is real. I love how you helped me realize that love isn't just a feeling that its an action. I love how my heart won't let you go. I love you but hate that I can never have you again.
did you ever realize...
Did you ever realize the look I got in my eyes when I looked at you? Did you ever realize I would do anything for you? Did you ever realize all the tears I've cried. did you ever realize that you changed my life?
Why?
Why did you not care when I cried in front of you? Why did you believe what you heard? Why couldn't you just be honest? Why did you have to leave? Why did you say I love you when it's not what you really meant?
But I guess whether or not I hate you, miss you, and love you all i really want to know is why now?