the same thing repeats in my head all day...everyday....
its a constant reminder of the pain....
and that pain never dulls.....
it pierces...deep...like a thorn...


i repeat it over and over..trying to find the reason that i believed it..
" how could i have been so stupid?????......
he treated me like dirt on the bottom of his shoe....
and i stood by him......regardless......
regardless of how stupid my own family told me i was....
that was the love i had for him...was going to be his wife in 2 months....
had everything planned.....my dress that i love.....
and yet my love was not enough.....HE LEFT ME!!!! "


those are the thoughts that tortue me day by day...
night by night....a constant reminder of what a fool i was..
he was supposed to be my happy ending......
instead he ended our story....