I just want to live.
Live & enjoy life like everybody else.
But this won't happen to me ..
Cuz
When I think my life's all colorful,
it turns out to be just an illusion ..
Its all black & white underneath .
When I think everything is perfect,
I'm forced to see the imperfections.
When I smile,
I have to cry the next moment ..
&& when I think I am complete,
that's when I realise how incomplete i really am.
I tried smiling through tears,
I struggled to fight away the fears,
but nothing seems to work out now.
I thot everything happened for a good reason,
but I can't find out the reasons for any optimism now.
I feel like a depressed zombie.
I have no idea what's going on.
My life sucks.
My heart is broken.
Why ?
I'm still *figuring out* .

But there's always a ray of hope.
& I'm in search of the r ai n b o w..
Colors that'll bring me back to life.

For now, i'll just wait.
♥