I know I said that I prefer being alone, but I think it's because I'm used to it. I've never really had friends, so being around people is weird for me. But I hate that. I hate that I can't even decide if I want friends or not, people kind of decide for me. And it hurts knowing that no one wants to even talk to me, or get close to me. I'm probably going to live a lonely, sad life, because I'm not capable of loving people, and people aren't capable of loving me.