2011
this year, I've felt completely alone with no where to turn.
even though there were only 365 days in this year, I can
easily say that many of those days ended with tears on my
pillow as I drifted off to sleep. I realized that some people
aren't who I thought they were at first. I struggled to let
go of people I thought I needed to survive, & I finally
released my grip when I realized they were only bringing
me down. I met some truly amazing people who have
stayed by my side starting this year & hopefully until the
end of forever. I found tiny bits of happiness when I was
going through a remarkable amount of pain. I found
myself wishing to be anywhere else. I met a guy I
could picture myself marrying until he shattered my
heart into a million pieces. I realized some people are
truly there for me even though it took a long time for
me to realize it. I felt as if I could fly. I gave up in
situations where I should have kept trying. I lost all
hope, every single bit of it. I became close with people
in a short amount of time & drifted from them in an even
shorter one. I had my w h o l e life figured out, then it
spirraled out of control. I found people who make my
life worth living. I met my witty best friends who live
400 miles away, & that day, I felt true happiness for the
first time since March 2010. I lost people I could never
imagine my life without. I idiotically cried over a guy in 8
different states. I let people down, hurt people purposely
& unintentionally. I wished I had an escape button from
life. I experienced every emotion there is.
I g r e w u p .
xoalicecullenxo
