There's so many things going on inside my head. So much pain, hate, depression, sadness, insecurities. And your never going to understand it. You'll never understand what it feels like to hate yourself so much that you can't even look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. To feel so much pain inside that you can't handle it so you take it out on yourself. To cut so much and so deep that you feel numb. To have the one thing that kept you holding on for so long, the only thing that made life worth living for to be taken away and leaving you all alone. The feeling of hate, worthlessness, after failing in killing yourself. Not knowing what you did wrong to be told to kill yourself by your classmates even your own family. No matter how much you say you get it and know how it feels you don't. Your never going to understand these feelings unless your me.