The Idea of Me
To them,
I’m bubbly,
I’m happy-go-lucky
I’m resilient,
Flamboyant
And nonchalant
I’m insensitive,
Infrangible
And indestructible
I’m carefree,
Worry-free
And problem-free
To them,
I’m careless,
I’m burden-less
I’m tough,
I love,
I always laugh
I’m optimistic
And opportunistic
I’m shatter-proof,
Insult-proof
And sorrow-proof
To them, I’m strong,
I persevere
But really,
I’m negative
And overly sensitive
I’m fighting,
Struggling,
Lying
And drowning
I pretend,
I defend,
I’m at a dead-end,
And can’t comprehend,
Life’s bitter-end
But really,
I’m weak,
And am a freak,
I die a little more,
Each passing week
I try,
I cry,
I ask myself why,
Every hello,
Ends with a goodbye
To them, I’m strong,
I persevere,
But really, I’m broken,
Beyond repair