well, i guess this is it.
i definitely don't want it to be this way. i'm going to
try to fix this, if i can. but if not, then i am so so so
sorry for messing this friendship up. i wish things
turned out differenty, i wish it was the way it was
before. i really miss you, more than you could ever
imagine. before i would think to myself, "well, at
least i still have my best friend." now i don't. and
that kills me more than you'll ever know. i know
it's all my fault, everything is. i wish i could fix this,
i'll try. i don't know if i'll be successful at rebuilding
this broken friendship, but i hope i can. i just want
you to know that you've saved my life, even though
i could never manage to help you with yours. i know
it seems like i don't care about you, but i care about
you more than i care about anybody else in the world.
i mean that. i think what i'm afraid of the most is
visiting my elementary school teachers, "are you still
best friends with her?" the fact that i can't say yes to
that question anymore makes my stomach turn. today
i've realized that we can't have what we had before
again, i've permanently messed it up for both of us.
but even though our friendship may end, the memories
will stay with me forever. & no matter how cheesy
and ridiculous this may sound, it's the complete truth.
& you may not believe me when i tell you how sorry
i am, but i've never felt so guilty in my entire life. & i
just want you to know; i love you. and i'm so sorry.
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