Imperfect Butterfly *
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2 years ago
So, the truth is it was much more serious then what I wrote above. After many many years, coming back and reading what I wrote was a surprise. I remember writing something more, I thought I came clean here about what happened. For a long time I did not want to read it becaue I already live with the horrid flashbacks; I was under the assumption it would trigger my ptsd. Instead it made me realise just how far I've came and grown. This summer was thankfully the time I came out and told the truth about what was going on, stood up for myself and made sure it would never happen again. My father did not do anything as mentioned above, nor did his wife; I told my father that "he's done things to me for years" not that "he talks dirty to me" as I wrote in the original post. The following day after speaking to my father; I came downstairs terrified but also feeling a sense of relief that things will finally stop. However, everything was the same as every other day. I was defeated in that moment but decided if no one else is going to protect me, I'll protect myself. I went into the washroom and called my mom and felt her break, felt her anger and rage when the words came out of my mouth. She was leaving and coming to kill him but as my little sisters were in the house and not wanting to lose my mom aswell, I told her how much it meant that she wanted to protect me and I no longer felt like I was the only one who loved and protected me. My brother and his mom were 10 minutes away, my mom called them and they were at my dads house to pick me up in 15 minutes. This was the last time I went to there house for many years. Eventually years later his grandchildren came out and spoke her truth; revealed that he abused both her and her sister. My stepmom eventually kicked him out of the house; but he still came around. I Eventually started to come over to visit my little sisters at my dads, here and there (as long as pedo was no where near the house). I survived, I am still here and everything I've been through has made me who I am today. From the age of four til I was 14 he took away my innocence, peace, self-love, the ensured I never felt safe or worthy, i felt disgusting. But slowly I gained it all back and more. He passed away a few months ago; I no longer have to worry about my sister's or no one else getting hurt by him ever again.
I am strong and thankful I had the strength that summer to stop his twisted, sick mind from hurting me ever again. I am thankful I am here today, more understanding and wiser than ever before. Grow through what we go through! reply
Imperfect Butterfly *
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1 decade ago
Life iss nothing but a bumpy road, i don't know which way to go.
but thank you, reply
kaylala513
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1 decade ago
dont ever say that...
your life might be rough now, but i promise you, it will get better.
krisa
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1 decade ago
Yep..gotta live ur life to the fullest n not care wat anyone else thinks bout chu..ur u n nobody can change dat,dats y i luff u :-* reply
Imperfect Butterfly *
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1 decade ago
Thanks Nella ,
Just gatta keep you're head up till you finally reach the top ;) <3 reply
krisa
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1 decade ago
Awww Justice dis quote is so true :-* reply
kaybabex34
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1 decade ago
i think he sounds like a creep but im not living with him if i where u i would definetly ake action and do something bc u dont want something bad to happen and then regret not doing anything good luck :) reply
askannie
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1 decade ago
I think you should talk to your dad again and tell him that its really bothering you. Also talk to your mom about it if your stepmom wont take action. Comment on my profilee (= reply
lettashere
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1 decade ago
do something.. it looks like he will do something stupid to u... reply
Imperfect Butterfly * · 2 years ago
So, the truth is it was much more serious then what I wrote above. After many many years, coming back and reading what I wrote was a surprise. I remember writing something more, I thought I came clean here about what happened. For a long time I did not want to read it becaue I already live with the horrid flashbacks; I was under the assumption it would trigger my ptsd. Instead it made me realise just how far I've came and grown. This summer was thankfully the time I came out and told the truth about what was going on, stood up for myself and made sure it would never happen again. My father did not do anything as mentioned above, nor did his wife; I told my father that "he's done things to me for years" not that "he talks dirty to me" as I wrote in the original post. The following day after speaking to my father; I came downstairs terrified but also feeling a sense of relief that things will finally stop. However, everything was the same as every other day. I was defeated in that moment but decided if no one else is going to protect me, I'll protect myself. I went into the washroom and called my mom and felt her break, felt her anger and rage when the words came out of my mouth. She was leaving and coming to kill him but as my little sisters were in the house and not wanting to lose my mom aswell, I told her how much it meant that she wanted to protect me and I no longer felt like I was the only one who loved and protected me. My brother and his mom were 10 minutes away, my mom called them and they were at my dads house to pick me up in 15 minutes. This was the last time I went to there house for many years. Eventually years later his grandchildren came out and spoke her truth; revealed that he abused both her and her sister. My stepmom eventually kicked him out of the house; but he still came around. I Eventually started to come over to visit my little sisters at my dads, here and there (as long as pedo was no where near the house). I survived, I am still here and everything I've been through has made me who I am today. From the age of four til I was 14 he took away my innocence, peace, self-love, the ensured I never felt safe or worthy, i felt disgusting. But slowly I gained it all back and more. He passed away a few months ago; I no longer have to worry about my sister's or no one else getting hurt by him ever again.
I am strong and thankful I had the strength that summer to stop his twisted, sick mind from hurting me ever again. I am thankful I am here today, more understanding and wiser than ever before. Grow through what we go through!
reply
Imperfect Butterfly * · 1 decade ago
Life iss nothing but a bumpy road, i don't know which way to go.
but thank you,
reply
kaylala513 · 1 decade ago
dont ever say that...
your life might be rough now, but i promise you, it will get better.
stay strong<3
reply
Imperfect Butterfly * · 1 decade ago
Amen , ;) <3
reply
krisa · 1 decade ago
Yep..gotta live ur life to the fullest n not care wat anyone else thinks bout chu..ur u n nobody can change dat,dats y i luff u :-*
reply
Imperfect Butterfly * · 1 decade ago
Thanks Nella ,
Just gatta keep you're head up till you finally reach the top ;) <3
reply
krisa · 1 decade ago
Awww Justice dis quote is so true :-*
reply
kaybabex34 · 1 decade ago
i think he sounds like a creep but im not living with him if i where u i would definetly ake action and do something bc u dont want something bad to happen and then regret not doing anything good luck :)
reply
askannie · 1 decade ago
I think you should talk to your dad again and tell him that its really bothering you. Also talk to your mom about it if your stepmom wont take action. Comment on my profilee (=
reply
lettashere · 1 decade ago
do something.. it looks like he will do something stupid to u...
reply