You get to this point, where you feel so empty, so desolate, so alone, so broken, that nothing can really help you. You don't even know who you are anymore, so you begin to believe everything everyone says about you, even more so than you did before. You take on the person that other people see in you, because really, you don't care anymore. You are numb to everything, but at the same time, everything hurts. Nothing makes sense, and you don't really know anything for sure. But you do know one thing for sure: that you want to die, you really really want to die.