Today, I cried.
Not the screaming bawling cry.
Not the loud hiccuping cry.
The silent cry, the cry that takes over,
brings you to your knees, head bowed down,
silent tears dripping down your face.
Your body shaking in silet sobs.
Today, I saw the boy
That, I am absolutely in love with,
giving another girl a piggy back ride,
holding another girls hand.
Looking at another girl -
the way hes supposed to look at me.
Will you ever notice me?
Today, I realized I will never be pretty
like the other girls.
I will never be that popular girl -
I've dreamed of being since I was little.
I will never be the girl every guy likes,
the girl every girl wants to be.
I will never be as good as her.
I will never look just rolled out of bed pretty.
Today, I realized how much I hate myself.