I missed you again
tonight, well i miss you everynight. i miss your stupid
nicknames, and those smiley faces that would make me smile so
bad! I miss how we would always live in the future, you said
you'd see me turn 19 i said you'll see me turn 80. I was
wrong. That hurts me, i didn't believe you when you aid you
were going to die. I write less now, an email every week or so, a
poem every once in a while, a page in my journal barely ever. I
feel like i lost another brother, thats what you were to me
mainly. You were in my life as my brother. You always cared, i
was never alone. Remember when we made fun of you for wearing the
speedo? And you said you ran out of the pool because you were so
embarrassed? Remember when she saw you singing for me? That day
still is in my heart so much. Or god that banana XDDD It hurts so
bad to be here without you. April 10th you told her to take care
of me, well it's june 17th and i guess she's doing a
pretty good job. I would do anything to have you in my life
again, i wonder what you smelled like, or what your voice sounded
like. I wish i went and saw you. i hope you're in a better
place now Alexander. I hope you are at rest with your brother. I
hope you see mine up there somewhere. I'll see you again one
day, i swear to god if there is a heaven, you are looking down on
me. I miss you forever. Rest in Paradise Alexander Fruk </3
You will live on forever.
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