Words cannot even define how much I am so so so tired of being everyone's second fúcking choice. No one ever picks me first for anything. I always have to be the last resort, always. I don't want to be just the person you choose when the one you really want isn't available. If I'm always going to be that, then just don't choose me at all. I don't want to be someone's fúcking backup plan, i want to be worth it. I want to be someone's best friend, I want to be the only girl a guy wants, I want to feel like I mean something more than just annoying everyone around me with my existence. I am entirely legitimately so sick of this shít. I want out.