My mother found the notebook. The one with the dark thoughts, Poems about the depression, Stories about my cutting, My suicide attempts. She found that notebook. The one that contains my future suicide note. There are not so very nice things written about her in there. R.I.P. Lindsey. Death by mother.
Dear Witty Diary, #11 It's been about a year and a half, Witty. I can say that a lot of things have changed since I last been on here. I've reconnected with my old friends, some who I've never thought I'd be friends with again, I've made new friends, some who I'd never thought I be friends with, and I'm finally breaking out of my shell. I guess one thing that hasn't changed is that I'm still in like with my best friend (who isn't really my best friend anymore). I don't know what else to say, but I'm going to promise myslef one thing: to finally tell him this school year, even if it means breaking my heart. With love, my_silent_whispers. July 5th, 2014. 12:50 A.M.
RANT RANT RANT RANT RANT whenever I see a about how someone 'needs to get off witty' my respect for the user who wrote the quote ABSOLUTELY DISAPPEARS. who do you think you are to tell someone they NEED to leave? this isn't your website, you're not a moderator, and you are certainly not the voice of everyone on witty. you know what that is? cyber bullying. so they're fake, or they bullied you? you think the most mature and effective way to deal with the problem is make a quote about them or to try get a ton of people to report them? what the hell? that is the most ridiculous thing i've ever heard. so yeah, if i see anyone saying someone needs to 'get off witty', that 'no-one wants them here', that they're just making the website worse or that they aren't welcome, you know what? i dont' care who you are - i'm gonna call you out on it. don't speak for me, and don't cyberbully people and assume you'll be backed. i don't care what's happened between you. if i see cyber-bullying, you'll be called out on it. if you have a message for a user, tell it to them. don't make some smart-as.s quote about them. as far as i'm concerned, that's nothing but a di.ck move. how dare you? grow the hell up. /this isn't directed at anyone in particular, but if it applies to you maybe take it on board idk ?????? (thats saracastic idk if u can tell) god damn. how old are you guys, ffs. *angry angry angry*
but people aren't just puzzles that can be created and taken apart, because with puzzles you can tell when a piece is missing - you spot a gape and you have a vague idea as to what piece is missing - people aren't like that. we are sand, we consist of hundreds of thousands of molecules, we are several hundred million grains of sand and sometimes a grain will fall from the sculpture that is our bodies and our souls. with time we wither as the ocean soaks into our frame and soon we start to sag, the grains collapse and crumple - some fall off in chunks - but we do not notice because we consist of so many little pieces that one grain will not be missed. until one day, after several million grains of sand - several million grains of you - have crumpled and been washed away by the ocean do you start to feel empty, and you notice this gape within you and you have no idea as to when or even how you had lost this part of yourself, you cannot find it because it consisted of many pieces and it is so very small. it has no shape, it is just a mass of nothing, and you crawl along the floor in a vain attempt to find all your missing pieces but they all look the same and is this piece even yours or are you stealing someone else's missing grains of sand? we do not consist of five hundred pieces of cardboard cut into geometric shapes, we are sand and we erode at a pace so slow we do not even realise we are missing chunks of ourselves until the ocean has eaten everything that makes us who we are.
I havent thought about it before now, but I think I have an eating disorder. All throughout the day there never, not once a time where I am not eating something, doesn't matter if it's cookies, or chips, I am always eating. like wtf
Guise. Uh. I have 24 followers and I just want 25 so bad. Uh. Like SOO bad. Whoever is my 25th follower is going to be like my bestfriend. Like you don't even know. I am gonna like love you and stuff forever and i am gonna follow you back and buy you a cake and throw you a birthday party aand send you flowers and buy you a car and name a star after you and discover a new island and make you king/queen of this island and write you a #1 song and i might like..buy you a cat?
confessions . [x] I'm straight.  I'm gay.  I'm bi-curious  I'm easy. [x] I do wear make up. [x]When I walk by mirrors, I can't help but look. [x] When I walk by mirrors, I like what I see [x] When I walk by mirrors, I hate what I see. [x] I wear a bra to bed (WHY DO YOU NEED TO KNOW THIS)  I sleep naked [x] I wear toe nail polish. [x] I have cried at a movie theater.  I've purposely talked to a guy my boyfriend didn't like. [x] I love chocolate covered pretzels. [x] Getting a flower makes me smile, especially for no reason.  I've wrecked a car.  I can't put mascara on without opening my mouth. [x] I'd do anything for that special guy [x] I get jealous easily [x] I love cuddling.  I think Johnny Depp is sexy. ;D  I’ve gotten a detention.  I've gotten suspended.  I've gotten expelled. [x] I love to laugh. [x] I like rock. [x] I like death/grind/black metal. [x] I like rap. [x] I like techno. [x] I like country.  I carry a purse. [x] I'd be lost without my cell phone. [x] I'd be lost without my mp3/CD player/iPod.  I own/did own a Spice Girls CD.  I own/did own a Britney Spears CD.  I own/did own a boy band CD. [x] Football isn't boring. (half and half) [x] I love athletic boys. [x] I love skater guys. [x] I love punk guys.  I love gangsta guys. [x] I love emo guys.  I love gothic guys. [x] I love geeky guys. [x] I love country guys. [x] I love guys that are just themselves. [x] Guys are confusing [x] I've been called a tease. [x] I've been called a slutt [x] I've been called a bad influence. [x] Lip gloss is better than lipstick. [x] I can't leave the house without makeup. (mascara & eyeliner) [x] I play video games, even when there are other people around. [x] My friends are the best, and they're important to me. [x] I would do anything for my friends.  I smoke way too much.  I drink way too much.  I have a tattoo.  I have piercings other than my ears.