Demonicangel31 posted a quote
November 30, 2015 12:52am UTC
I'm so tired... I'm tired of always losing. I'm tired of never being good enough. I'm tired of trying and never getting what I want. Im tired of fighting so hard for everyone and having no one who fights for me. Im tired of having my heart shatter into millions of pieces. im tired of the same nightmares day in and day out. im tired masking all the pain and caging all the anger. I'm just... so tired...
GabbyBaby posted a quote
November 27, 2015 4:18am UTC
When you have to interrupt your family's thanksgiving so you can be taken to the ER. Then the hospital's pain meds don't work and the pain is making you exhausted but also preventing you from sleeping. And then you're crying from both pain and tiredness.
crimson24 posted a quote
November 15, 2015 9:26pm UTC
Trapped, but too far gone Deaf, but still hear screaming Voiceless, but somehow saying that I'm fine Dying, but still walking around Confused, but still functioning Alone, but with my demons Going black...everything...spinning...
I guess I am just tired. Tired of being talked about behind my back. Tired of being laughed at. Tired of being made fun of. Tired of feeling ugly. Tired of being ignored. Tired of feeling unloved. Tired of no one caring. Tired of pretending to be happy, when all I want to do is cry.
I'm so mentally drained. I slept for twelve hours today, and I couldn't wake up all day. I had some coffee, then I took a nap, how is that possible? is that normal?
Heavy eyelids will tell you when it's time to rest and tearfull yawns will tell you when your soul is sad. girly, you have big plans and so much ambition, but you're on the fast track to insanity if you don't listen to your body.
The things I wish I could say about you, the father of my child. I used to could say some of the kindest things, but now the things you say are cruel. You tell me you don't love me, when you used to tell me everyday. You would run your fingers through my hair now instead you'd rather pull it. You used to hold my heart carefully in your hands, but now you'd rather crush it. Instead of telling me I'm beautiful each and everyday you tell me how ugly and fat I am. You tell me I can never take care of our baby right. And when you don't have to work and I'm so happy your home so we can spend days together you leave me and our son all alone at home to hang out with your friends. Last year around this time we were so full of love we were bursting from the seams. Now you are filled with hatred towards me. I can't help that I have stretch marks and gained some baby weight but you were so happy when we found out that I was pregnant. Now you look at me with disgust and only hold your son to feed him. You never sit and talk to him for hours at a time like I do. But, I know you love him. I just wish I knew you loved me too. :( But sadly I know you don't love me anymore but I don't want our son to have split up parents so I'll take all your abuse like a pill one at a time until my body can't take it anymore.