I do not think anyone sees this, but I want to say it. First of all, sorry for my bad English.
It's really horrible knowing that my life depends on someone I don't know, they don't know of my existence.
They don't know that I exist.
And I love them, but they could never say me "beautiful", and I'll never hug them.
They are only idols, I'm one in a million.
"they are only idols", no, they are like my life, my heart, my head, all my body.
And I love them more than people that I have beside me.
I can say you that It's nothing cute cry in front of a screen, watching meet and greets, things that only happen in America.
Oh, everything would be easier if I lived there, in america!
But "the world is not a wish-granting factory": a stupid phrase of a stupid movie, but, is the truth. Okay, the movie is not stupid, and the book... either.
But, can you understand? I look like a depressed teenager, but... It's not like that. I want to publish my whim, my "sentences" it's very egocentric, i know that but, i don't have no one here...
And, after all, they're "just idols".
"Just idols", nothing more...
"Just idols".
It will be easier if they where "just idols" but no, they're a part of my life, of my heart, of all i am.