▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌ ♡ Now you're doing all the things with her that i longed to do with you. I begged and pleaded for your time, and now you've happily moved on. After all you've done, all you've lied about, how much you've hurt me, how does even this still hurt so much.. ♡ ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌
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December 8, 2020 8:47pm UTC
▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌ ♡ I will never be her. But if only for a minute I could be, maybe I would have your attention fully. Maybe you would fight for me. Maybe that's it's, I'm just not her. ♡ ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌
I don't know why, but I get stuck in this loop of reading our old quotes. I guess I just like to reminisce about life back then. I read some of the quotes and all I can do is just cry. I cry at the sad ones, and I cry at the happy ones. I wonder what life would be like if we both tried to make it work at the same time. It seems timing was a major issue for us. But now there is no us and that's okay. I am happy where I am now in my relationship. I think what gets me the most is all of the wild and unfiltered emotions that we shared. Now we're strangers. We both know you hurt me, and we both know that I hurt you. Knowing that, I am so unimaginably sorry for everything. Just know, that I was unaware of the pain that I put you through while it was happening. At the time, I may not have cared because it was the same way you hurt me. How you pretty much left me behind. Although, that doesn't make it any better or right. I will never not be sorry for how things went on both ends. No matter how much I look back or replay memories, the sorrow and the guilt never gets any easier. I wish it did. Maybe that's why I keep writing about it?