i think im falling in love. did you ever have that feeling where you know right away that you like someone? i have never felt it until now. i think i am falling for the boy who saved my life. one night a couple weeks ago, i was going to end it all. i felt so alone. but he messaged me. we started talking and it hit me no one has ever cared for me like that. He was a complete stranger at the time, Everyone always told me to kill myself. so i started to talk to him more and more,i got to see him a couple times, and i just know im starting to like him. but i know i cant. why? because he has a girlfriend. im not a home wrecker. but i cant help it. i will back off, and not talk as much, to try and save my heart. because who could love someone like me? i will silently wish everyday that he was mine, but i wont tell him. i wont make things awkward. because out of everyone, he is the one i know i need most. he saved my life. he is my hero. in 33 days he is going to bootcamp to be a marine. in 33 days im going to lose my best friend, my work buddy, my crush, my hero. i would never have the guts to tell him any of this. and i hope he never finds out because i cant afford to lose him. i want to tell him all these things. and if he was single i know i would. but i dont want to ruin what makes him happy. all know is, in 33 days, my world is going to change for the worst :(