My happiness has run out...
I have no where to express my feelings and this is where i will do it like i said i would
So yesterday i was having a actually alright day, me and my parents were thinking about Easter, blah blah..
We are sitting in the car on the way to the shops and my dads phone rings, he sounded shocked.
I had no idea what happened until he said "are you kidding me?" my heart beat so much,
Turns out my Nan had passed away a hour before. After all of this, this actually happens.
I couldn't talk, i was sat in the car with no words coming out of my mouth, staring into space.
I couldn't move a finger. It took me 20minutes to actually talk.
Worst got later, we all started talking about whats going to happen.
Then we got a picture sent (by request). It was like God hit me.
I couldn't move, talk, anything! I layed on my bed, curled into a ball.
No words were coming out. I was layed there into a ball for about an hour.
I do not regret seeing the picture, being honest; i Imagined her looking worse.
Funeral is on Saturday but i still cannot come to terms with the loss.
Feels like she is still here with us.
I really do not want my depression back, but I certainly want my Nan back!
♥RIP NAN - 07.04.2014♥