But even in her laughter there was something missing.She never seemed to be truly happy;she just seemed to be passing time till she waited for something else.She was tired of existing;she wanted to live. xxcorinne95xx format nmq*
Unfortunately I; - Fall too fast - Crash too hard - Care too much - Forgive too easy - Wait too long - Miss people I shouldn't - Sometimes worry over nothing - Over think everything - Am too complicated to be loved - All Of The Above
And that was the day she crashed down. Life was so confusing to her; too many question were still left to be answered, and too many fights had to yet be fixed. She had had enough; didn't want to deal with all the drama anymore. The worstpart of it all was that she was the one changing; not everyone else. But nobody would have known that she was hurting inside. Everyday she entered school with a smile plastered on her face. But that was the day she ran all the way home, jumped on her bed, blasted the radio, and b r o k e .
I want him back, oh so badly. I miss his arms around me and how much bigger his hand was compared mine when we held hands. I miss his laugh; his hugs; the way he unexpectedly came up from behind me, wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my check. Watching the sunset together, just happy to be in each others arms. Fuzzlies. All our inside jokes that made us laugh for hours. I miss riding his skateboard, & wearing that hat. Our favorite song blasting through his headphones that hung around my neck (before you put them on her and she ruined them). I miss him walking me to class even when that boy knew he would be late to his own. I loved the way he made by day, just by smiling. But now, I look at that heartbreaker and c r y . Thinking about the old days makes me break down. Hearing what they did together makes me wanna throw up, just as much as having to walk right past him without getting as much as a glance. he makes me bipolar. Sometimes I wanna kiss him, others i wanna kill him. It's insane, I know it is. But I just can't get over the memories, and most importantly, him.
tip: if you turn down guys/girls who flirt with you or ask you out just because you deem them to be ugly, you are a shallow human being, and probably missing out on a whole lot of great people who could potentially be perfect for you.
I made it through yesterday... All the way until the night came. Then i fell apart. Yesterday was a year since he left me... and in 7 days will be his and her year anniversary.. This week i swear is gonna kill me.. i miss him so much.. especially if last night happens again.... </3
anathema * posted a quote
February 4, 2013 3:33pm UTC
I am not depressed. I Can still smile at pretty things, And laugh when jokes are funny. I can still talk to people. And enjoy nice days. But when I go inside, When I'm alone, There is something broken. And I fall into a sadness so sweet. That it englufs me. I look in the mirror. And I don't like what I see. And the tears always fall, When I'm falling asleep. And I miss something, That doesn't exist. I am not depressed. I've just been sad for a while. But I can still find the light, I can still smile.