So i joined this website 10 years ago. It was my diary and a community where I felt so understood. I went here to vent out my middle school and early high school angst. It makes me sad it is no longer popular because I wish some other middle schooler could have the safe haven we all did here. I am laughing and feeling so nostalgic as I read all of my old quotes. I can remember all of those feelings so vividly. And at the time, it felt like life or death. But now, I graduated college with a business degree. I have a great job. I am living in a city I never imagined I would be in. I have fantastic friends. I’ve seen the world. And I have a boyfriend…my first boyfriend, who I love. Pretty cool to come on here and see how far I have come and that everything has really come full circle. I hope all of you have made it in your own way too.
So basiclly it has been 1 million years since ive been on here. I was looking through all my old stuff as a teenager and it's crazy because it feels like it was just yesterday. Plus I was such a weirdo lol I still am, but I guess I just hide it a bit better now that Im older lol. I am having such nostalgia it's unreal. I hope eveyone who is still on here and active is doing well. I remember when it used to be so popular and people were posting quotes all the time. I miss this place a lot and I really wish it would make a come back. I think it would be really nice. Lets all try to bring it back lol. I know that no one is probably going to see this, but I guess I just want to document for myself so I can look back at it in another million years from now lol, or even the slight chance that someone will see this, I hope youre doing well. Im just sentamental person and sometimes it's hard for me to let go of the past. Ive been thinking a lot about the past recently so I guess thats why I decided to hop back on here for a minute. I guess that's it. So uh BYE ;) ~Diana <3 9/12/21 @9:59pm
Dudu* posted a quote
September 12, 2021 3:42am UTC
cause now i look forward to seeing you and that smile. that smile is stuck on repeat in my mind. in my mind i'm imagining the new conversations we'll share. we'll share stolen glances and make new memories i can keep. i keep wanting to make you laugh i keep wanting to share bits and pieces of my life with you. can i keep you?
Failure* posted a quote
September 10, 2021 5:01pm UTC
This is not how I thought my life would look like. I know i could go to you, make thousand of promises, but would the outcome be any different? I don't want to hurt you anymore. I hate to let you go. I love you.
cause your motherly touch feels like manipulation and your fatherly concern feels like insincerity. your eyes go green when you look at me. bank account, back up atm, i'll piggy back you both out of this mess. but when i turn to him, why are you both perplexed? craving a shoulder to lead on, a leader to lead me on. a touch that feels like what my mother's should, a voice that consoles me like no one else could. when i want to put this all down and rest my eyes. when i want to cave in, let the tears fall, guess who comes to mind? in flashes of gold and pink, the thought of him makes my heart sing. why did you both have to pale so much in comparison? both busy being busy, so loneliness became family to me. at some point anyone with a heart beat would have sufficed. but his blood is warm and his favourite laugh is mine
▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌ ♡ I deserve someone who tries, someone who can apologize when they're in the wrong, somene who i scared to lose me. I still miss you, but when I gave you everything I had, you gave me nothing but a sliver of what could have been. Something half filled when I tried to fill you with all of me, it was like pouring into a broken glass, I was never going to be enough for you, and you were never even going to give me the basic decency that I am worthy of. I'm better without you, but it still hurts so much You're a piece of me that I will never get back, and the tears I still cry for you, sting the most. ♡ ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌