Please leave format credit to 1986! i asked god to take you out of my life if you weren't going to bring me more happiness than pain. And he immediately took you away. and yet i still wasn't satisfied because i wanted to be the one who called the shots, I wanted to be the one who ended things. I just wanted you to stay until someone better came along...how selfish of me. “
so, apparently even tho at 17 you need an adult with you to go to the doctor's because you aren't an adult, you're adult enough to be charged $301 for that appointment and have it haunt you and your credit score years later when you're an actual adult.
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February 2, 2016 12:10am EST
do you ever just stalk a past.. thing (relationship, crush, etc) and get this weird feeling? like I am sad but I'm not. I am jealous but of weird stuff. I'm happy for them but not really? it's like a "oh, you broke my heart except I don't really know if it was love anyway.. glad to know you are happy and now living with the girl you broke up with me for, and essentially doing everything we talked about.. that I don't really look for in life anymore, but your life has still progressed more than mine." kinda thing. THEY ADOPTED A FRIGGIN' DOG WITH EACH OTHER. UGH.
I was saving up money to get someone in my family something nice. but then my family annoyed me as a whole. so I just spent multiple hundred dollars on myself. even though I should probably have kept all that money due to the fact I won't have a job soon. but whatevs. can't stop won't stop.
See, I don't believe in the kindness of strangers. But I want to. God, I'm trying to. I wish I could say I've stopped believing in wishing wells; (but i've kept all the pennies in my pocket from the beginning) wish I could say this is where the scar started (but this is how it began ); wish I could tell you all the wishes I made at 11:11 (i didn't, but i did think about the ones i could). The only wishes I made were on stars, but I'm still looking up and I'm still bandaging wounds. That one stayed. I don't know what to tell you. I'm trying to believe that people can be kind (when i'm not) and I'm trying to trust (when i won't). I do wish--- God, I want to (be) .