You wouldnt notice if someone really wanted to die or not. You wouldnt notice that when you look away from them they stop smiling. You dont notice the way they become more controlled. Their laugh is controlled, Their smile even smaller, fake. Maybe every once in awhile you will catch them with this sad distant look in their eyes. You will notice how they seem to just stare into nothing, like their alone and completley gone. You probably won't notice the way the slowly start to distant themselves, they don't say as much. They stop telling you about themselves. Maybe they make up excuses saying "Sorry I'am busy" or "No I'am a little tired" and you will believe them. You will make a joke that tears them, but they will laugh it off. Every time. You may say something on accident "maybe you should kill yourself" and they will laugh that off but inside they feel like you actually meant it. No matter what, thats what they think. Maybe if you paid more attention. Would you notice how their skin became more covered up? They're wearing jackets when its clearly hot out. Their hands are constantly pulling the sleeves down more, trying to cover up their fingers to. They just dont want to be seen, but its so subtle. Maybe you compliment them, their answers become shorter. Just a simple "Thanks". Of course they dont believe it, they think their all lies. Even though they say it with a smile on their face, watch out for that empty look in their eyes. Just pay attention to them. It's nearly impossible to spot someone with self-hate, unless you're one of them. But just never look away.
Me: gives him a box Him: What is this? Me: It's all the memories I have of you. The good and the bad. Him: Why are you giving me this? Me: I was hoping you would remember the memories and fall back in love with me because I need your love Him: Just hugs me
i knew after all this time he was never mine i just wasnt going to admit it i knew i was being played i just went along with it to make u happy i knew in the end i would be broken i just didnt know it would be this hard and how much i miss u and its only been 24 hours
And in the blink of an eye everything changed. I had no idea what was going on. Everything was moving too fast. I'd wished you would slow down. But you didn't. Not even for a brief second. You came. You said what you had to say. And you left. All of the sudden I was crying. I had no idea why. Until it came to me. It really came to me. It hit me like a bullet. It sunk in slowly. Like the moon coming up over the night sky. The more it sunk in. The more pain I felt. The most pain I have ever felt. And once it was really in me good. It stung like nothing I've ever felt before. It was almost like I had been slapped across the face. Shot to the ground. And kicked while I was down. You left me to gather up my feelings. You wouldn't even stay to help me dry my tears. You just left. And now I'm left alone, To gather up the pieces to my heart. And try~as hard as I possibly can~to reassemble it. Well guess what. It's not working. Because when you left, You took a whole big chunk of my heart. And you will forever be in debt. ~~Paige-The Broken Girl With Broken Feelings
One of the best feelings ever is probably when you say "I'm fine." over and over, But he refuses to leave until you tell him, and he keeps asking you. Because I hate that empty feeling when someone ask's what's wrong, And you say nothing, and they're like "Oh, okay."