i still think about him and talk to him because can't get over him and move on, and i end up hurting myself.→
they say the best way to move on is to put yourself out there and find other guys. simple, right? ↓
wrong, at least for me. guys at my school are either taken, wouldn't date me, are just plain unattractive all together or total dïcks. i feel like i have to lower my standards. it isn't like i don't try, it's just that guys are never interested; guys just never like ME. they never make effort with me to get closer because there's always someone better. guys don't want anything to do with me.
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'maybe look for guys outside of school' once again, the guys i know from other schools aren't interested. yes, i could meet guys at places like the mall, the park, etc. but my luck is very, very slim.
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constantly seeing couples just makes it worse. i've never been in a relationship and i just wish i could know what it's like to have mutual feelings with someone. i wish i could have someone besides family to hug and kiss and tell me that i'm beautiful. i'm beyond tired of getting hurt and let down. it almost hurts more than words can express. i know it's not something to make a big deal out of, but it still sucks. so then i'm left lonely and depressed, and i go back to someone i know who doesn't like me. and the cycle continues.
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