ms_me01 posted a quote
October 13, 2013 7:15pm EDT
One-sided crushes are the world's annoyance. You know he will never like you back, you know he never thinks of you. And yet, you waste your time daydreaming about his pretty smile, or what it'd be like if he liked you back. You make up all this scenarios that you know will never happen, but yet, give you hope. Then you tell yourself that someday, something will happen between you two. And when you come back down from that frustrating, lovesick cloud, you realize how ridiculous you are for thinking all that. And yet, you can't avoid it from happening again. The next thing you know, you're once again making up scenarios that will never happen. You begin to invent this perfect guy that you imagine him to be, which he definitely isn't, and you end up liking him more. And at the same time, wishing that God wouldn't had made you so stupid. One-sided crushes make you corny, stupid, and unrealistic. I do not even know why they exist, and why they have to invade my peaceful obsession over a celebrity.
i hate boys but i don't hate all of them for negative reasons some of them are just too cute or genuine or actually nice and it's just WHY and i get internally pulverized by that while others are genuinely buttheads or are the complete bane and scum of the earth to me see, i'm not completely heartless :-)
My love life right now; #1 as/hole.) Justin. In love with him for a year and a half. Think about him endlessly. He screwed his co worker and friends ex while I sat in my room crying over him. What does he have to say for it? 'Sorry'. Sorry will never be enough #2 as/hole) Alexis: Dated for 3 months, thought I loved her, broke up because she was upset I didn't want to come out. Im not even interested in girls right now. She listens to my cry every night. She hears me scream and she dries my tears. But she wants more than Im willing to give right now. Knows I'm heartbroken, still tried to hook up. #3 as/hoke) Other Justin. Hears me talk about how much I hate that all of my guy friends are making moves on me, makes a move on me. Constantly talks sh/t about the guy I'm in love with. Really cute and my type but I just cant like him because I dont have feelings for them. Been seriously considering that date with him, but realizing I'd just be lying to him if I agreed. #1 person who's not an as/hole but is still making me angry) Brenden. Such a sweet kid, but honestly I need some space from him. I don't have the heart to tell him because he's been in love with me for four years and telling him to gtfo would kill him. # 2 person whos not an as/hole but is still making me angry) Hussein. Dont know how, dont know why, but I'm just mad. I think I'm more mad at myself than him. I wish he'd give us a chance to be friends. I wish I had never hurt him the way I did, and I'd do anything to take it back or make up for it. Lets go back to the #1 as/hole for a sec. I hate him. I hate him so so so so sooooo much, but only because I love him. Im making myself mad at him to avoid being sad.