No amount of good deeds can actually cover up the evil that wells inside me. Is there no one who can set us free? Am I truly malefic from day my mother bore me? Struggle everyday have I. To be just or to let myself get corrupted by? I am never sure of my choices day by day. both good and evil are here to stay. No, normal person can understand. Nothing. Probably just let us waste away.
This Ain't A Fairy Tale He's Not Prince Charming Dont Look So Hopeless Girl Your Rein Is Coming. S/N: This is the hook for one of the songs I've written. If you like it just fave, I might pose the rest of the lyrics ;)
out on her balcony, with the wind blowing on her favorite dress tearstained cheeks are flushed of color she was beyond nervous, but her hands were steady, tightening the rope normally she would be sick but tonight she remained calm because as she stepped onto the ledge, she knew tonight she would finally be at peace
Sometimes, LOVE is definately NOT the most powerful force in this world. Sometimes, love is one-sided, and that's how it seems now... But at the same time, I can't help but hope that someday she WILL love me back. At the same time, I know that it will never happen... And I just have no idea what else to do with my life... People say "It gets better." But does it? Or does it all just stay the same? Miserable, Hopeless, and ending too soon. Or, rather, not soon enough..
It was then that I realized the most miserable time to be awake is late at night. Some say mornings are the worst, but I beg to differ — it is at night that you feel the sinking despair of fleeting time and utter loneliness. There is you, and somewhere there is a world, but you feel a profound disconnect, as if you have been stranded on a desert island. It is a dreadful feeling of hopelessness, and in those few hours, it seems as if you have been eternally stripped of your happiness. And then, oddly, you wake up the next morning to life begun again.
I seriously don't know what to do. I'm helplessly lost right now. My bestfriend, who is my everything, the one I count on to be there for me, to make me happy and take my mind off things. Is leaving me. Moving 7 hours away. It kills me inside knowing that. But I thought It wont be terribly bad because i'll have my boyfriend. Well now he's leaving for half the summer for work. The summer we get together before he leaves for the Army, He's gonna be gone for most of it. Leaving me here by myself, with my mind that drives me mentally insane. I can't be alone for too long or bad things happen. And now im gonna be alone for months at a time. With nobody? I don't know what to do. I'm lost and confused. Who's gonna keep me safe from myself? Who's gonna laugh, and share memries with me now? A part of me wants to end it now. You and me. Just end it and move on so I'm ready for this. Maybe i'll find someone to help me through the summer then. I just don't know anymore.