Heyy guys. Sorry I haven't been on in a while. Just wanted you to know I won't be on as often at all. I still love you guys and will check up every once in a while to see if y'all need help. I'm personally on tumblr more now. Same username. Y'all can always message me there if you want as well. Love you guys. It's late, I know, but HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVELIES!!
2013 had it's high points and low points. It had it's hard times and amazing times. But most of all, it taught me lessons and I made some amazing memories. This year started off amazing. I have already made some amazing memories that I will never forget and realized that I need to appreciate the things that are so important to me. I hope that at the beginning of 2015 I can look back at this year and have no regrets. To say wow, that was amazing.
2013 A lot of stuff happened. Some of it was great, some of it terrible. I made a lot of great friends. Both here on witty (doublesidedice and fionarose especially) and at my school. For the first time in my life I truly allowed myself to get close to people. But I lost people too. 2013 taught me that people are going to betray you and leave you but sometimes it's better just to let go I came back to my faith. I joined my church youth group and relearned who God was. It helped to make me stronger in myself and helped me to fight a lot of battles I wouldn't have survived without it. I got into a really bad state of depress.on, caused by fights with friends and family issues. I started scratching everyday. Then a little bit deeper. And a little deeper, until it turned into cutt.ng. I became afraid of myself and the world around me, becoming slightly su.cidal yet again. My best friend got an eating disorder, self harmed really badly, and I almost lost her to suic.ide.It was really hard and caused a lot of really long hard nights and a lot of pain both for her and for me. And at the same time, I lost her as my true, fully there for me, best friend. Not completely but things are different now. You can only be through so much with somebody until you either grow closer or begin to see each other differently. That's something I had to learn the hard way. My grandmother got cancer, and for the first time in my life I had a fear that I would lose the one person in my family who I have always been able to talk to. I started my sophomore year with a lot of stress. For the first time in my life my grades started to slip and I didn't love school. It made me feel lonely and I found myself staring out of windows with wanderlust but also a desire for death. I spent countless hours talking a random stranger, who is now a friend, Dani, out of throwing herself off a bridge at the young age of 22 in Canada. The boy of my dreams asked me to be his girl, for the first time n my life making me feel like I was actually somewhat wanted. Overall, 2013 year of lessons. Lessons which I will remember but I am ready to leave the year in the past. Welcome 2014, I'm ready for you.
May this year be filledwith magic and dreams and goodmadness. I hope you read somefine books and kiss someone whothinks you are wonderful, anddo not forget to make some art; write or draw or build or sing orlive as only you can. And I hope,somewhere in this year, yousurprise yourself. HAPPY NEW YEAR