I have one good friend that I love and care about. When I see her I feel my mood get 100 times better. She smiles at me I smile at her. Our conversations are light hearted in person, we delve a bit deeper in our text messages. I'm glad to have her. I'm glad she could show me what it means to have a true, wholesome friend. I have these other people I hang out with. My mood when I'm with them isn't the best. I can't help but feel like they don't respect me. Like I'm an easy target, or pushover. I know I just need to be firm once and for all, but I don't want to go that far. Because being firm in their books would have to be something as clear as a loud shout. More than just "Stop it, you're being too much." But something short of a meltdown. And I don't want to go that far. I've been distancing myself. Slowly easing myself out of our decade of "friendship". They're not the same anymore, I want to speed this process up, but I also want it to happen naturally. Why is this so hard.
I know What it's like to lose somebody you love And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone 'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
I hope someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight. They don't pull away, they don't look at your face, and they don't try to kiss you All they do is wrap you up in their arms and hold on tight without an ounce of selfishness in it I hope you become addicted, baby I hope you become addicted to sayin' things and having them matter to someone
I've fallen victim too many times not give others some signs.. Here are 5 signs someone doesn't care for your feelings; 1. They make everything seem like it's your fault. 2.Your feelings are seen as "drama" 3.They don't ask how you are 4.You feel lonely when you're with them 5. You're afraid to talk to them about it because you know it will only end up being your fault.
To my favorite person in the world, I know things are over, and I know that means I don't get to create new memories with you. I know I have told you not to talk to me again, but everyday I talk to you, sometimes in whispers, sometimes in sobs, but everyday I do. I know a lot of things now and one of them is how incredibly I miss you, but how that alone is not a great enough incentive to get us to talk again anymore. I know what we had was special and invaluable, and I know it because I know a lot of people, a hell of a lot of them, and still nothing makes up for the fact that we won't get to stroll around aimlessly together anymore. I know I am sad, I can feel it everyday as I lay my head down to sleep, and I know why I am so, but I also know that I have tried with all my heart for the both of us and it went in vain. I know what would feel good and what is right to do, and it aches me that this time they are two completely different things. I know I had you. I know I lost you.I know things are sh|tty. I know it's aready been a while. I know I should've been feeling better. BUT I AM NOT.And that's okay, or at least that's what they say. The one thing I DON'T know is whether this will end up being just a break or a good-luck-in-another-lifetime kind of thing. And it's scary how I DON'T know which of them would be a better option. I DON'T know why I'm writing this as well, but I guess if I ever figure out why I still talk to you in my head everyday, I'll figure out the rest of this. LOVE, always.
Christina* posted a quote
September 23, 2017 3:32am EDT
It has been five years since I made this account, This place was once blooming and now it seems like a ghost town This place helped me get through depression and anxiety It led me to find a few of my close friends, whom I would not have otherwise found #ThanksWitty
Dear Ladies.. Has a man ever asked you "Have you eaten today?" Has he ever given you a compliment without expecting one in return? Has he ever congratulated you on your achievements and pushed you to aspire you to do more? Has he ever claimed you as "His" not with his words, but his actions? Has he ever opened himself up to you, and given his all to the point there's no way he could share it with another woman? Has he ever done/said anything sweet to you, not because he knows that's what you want, but because he knows he's lucky to have you? Have you ever had a man be consistant with positive treatment that doesn't fade away? Does he make you smile without having to do anything? Have you ever had a man who is afraid of losing you because you're valuable to him? This is a real man. Have you ever been with a real man?
Dudu* posted a quote
September 14, 2017 9:16am EDT
I've decided I don't like you. You were nice enough to keep me interested, but I keep seeing cracks of your personality seep through, bad aspects. No ones perfect but I have to acknowledge the red flags ahead of time. So I've decided I don't like you. It was cute when you held doors open for me, watched over me and lent me a helping hand. I never asked for it and it was kind of you. We shared smiles and we made each other laugh. You're super tall and have super broad shoulders. Your face is a ten too. But I can't overlook some things. You seem to have a short temper. You took it out on your friend. I noticed it and you smiled over, tried to make it seem like nothing was going on. I couldn't reciprocate the smile this time. We all have bad days. But you can't let bad days make you a bad person for that day. You were really cool in my eyes before that.
words are just air that flies into the wind, noticed once and never remembered again. So if you want to keep me, do not blow your loving air into my ear, instead use motions that cut through the wind, and prove that they are puzzle pieces that fit into one another. Eminem - Space Bound