xxyeyaxx* posted a quote
April 22, 2018 8:58pm UTC
Partly I'm depressed because of him. To be honest, everywhere I go, something always reminds me of him. I go to a place and I remember the times that we had there. I see a similar car of his, I think of him. The list goes on. Another part is past memories. I was much more happier back then. It was calming and nothing could stop me. I am being stopped from enjoying life because of my sadness. All of this is my fault because I let the thought get to me. I hate myself for letting myself feel the way I do.
----ACTUAL TEXTS----2:47 PM Okayyyy so emily and pebs both see me as their daughter, so i have called them "mom" and " dad" before and thanks to society, daddy is viewed as the " FASTER " or " HARDER " Daddy shizz 2:47 PM That was the first time it slipped out as " daddy" though Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM Im.... done....Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM 💀2:49 PM I AM STILL A GOOD KID Dusty💚🔑💯 2:49 PMYou're just proving my point mam...2:50 PM When the frick did i become a "mam" i literally just called myself a kid. 2:50 PM And 2:50 PM It 2:50 PM Slipped 2:50 PM Okay
One thing I hate about myself is telling others and trying so hard to convince them you're happy . . . and then an hour later, I admit i'm falling apart.~~~ One thing I love about myself is that, I at least, admit what I lied about at all.
☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾ You ask my why all of my writing sounds sad, but you don't understand the way it manifests. The way my words are strung fairy lights, in an empty house at midnight, trying to make all of the dark edges beautiful again. ☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾
☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾ We are soft, malleable things behind our brittle masks. We dance to the music of of our dying days, and the champagne tastes a little bit like sadness, but maybe if we drink enough of it we will drown. I'm sick of wanting things I can't have. I'm sick of feeling sick, with my life, with myself. I'm sick of gritting my teeth for people who would sooner punch through them. I'm sick of smiling for a world that doesn't want to look me in the eyes. ☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾☽☾