Whysitgottabeme posted a quote
February 24, 2018 12:43pm UTC
~Its OK to cry, It's OK to want to scream, It's OK to get excited over the little things, the things other people may not be excited about. Regardless, we are still going to be labeled. So I say, live the best life you could have. Not everyone may approve but it's all up to you💕~
I waste at least an hour every day lying in bed. Then I waste time pacing. I waste time thinking. I waste time being quiet and not saying anything because I’m afraid I’ll stutter.
Is this just what you do? You start to get involved, get scared when the emotions are too much, and then dream up any excuse you can to run? Or to invite the other person to dump you?
I FEEL LIKE I'LL ALWAYS BE THAT PERSON THAT NO ONE TRULY CARES ABOUT. LIKE YEAH, THEY'LL SAY I'M FUNNY OR SMART OR SOME OTHER NICE WORDS THAT DON'T REALLY DIVE INTO THE COMPLEXITY OF ALL OF IT. BUT, IF I CALL AT MY BREAKING POINT, NO ONE WILL ANSWER. THEY WON'T CHECK ON ME. THEY WON'T WASTE THE TIME. I HAVE TO WONDER, IS IT MY FAULT NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME? OR IS IT MY AGE OLD BATTLE WITH UNRATIONAL THOUGHTS AND QUAKING FEAR THAT LED ME TO THIS CONCLUSION?
What a shame that the girl who once belived in fairytales and magic had to be struck by reality with demons in her mind and the fear of never being loved.
"the scariest thing about having someone so far away is they can just leave and thats it. you will never see or hear from them again, because you aren’t able to just go to them and patch things up."