if all is aligned and
right, tell them you love them. Trust your instincts. If you feel a wall between you and another person, it’d be best not to climb it. It’ll crumble if it’s supposed to. Practice saying goodbye when it hurts. Prepare yourself so the words don’t feel like thorns. Say them until they’re nothing. If you know in your heart this person is right for you, but not right today, bury the ring in the dirt of a potted orchid that will sit on your window sill. Water it. Kiss the wrong people only once. Make peace with your demons. Make peace with others’ demons. Write them on the paper from the diaries you had when you were 9. Burn them with the flame of a lavender candle. Hold on to the night you visited your best friend and you both drunkenly cried in the bathroom over how much you love each other. Hold on to the song you heard when you were driving home the next morning. Remember that other people are people too. Try to love the ones who have what you want. How lucky they are. Leave if you want to. Home isn’t a place and it certainly is not another person. It will be the best sort of aching you will feel - coming back to yourself.
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