In public I wanna cry but can't. I can't let people see the weak side of me. I have to stay strong because if I don't people will treat me poorly. No one messes with the strong kid. That's why I hold all my despair in, paste a smile to my face, and laugh hysterically. It's an obvious fact to seem happy. A lot of times it's genuine. Only for the moment though. Then I go home and feel despair like in public, I just can't cry because the tears won't fall. What's wrong?? I'm there for everyone but myself. I've mended many and don't have the slightest clue on where to start helping myself.