i use to run back to this boy just cus i was so use to him and so comfortable around him, being together 24/7, i felt like he was all i had. he was my home, or in other words my person. but now when i look at him i feel nothing but anger in my body and i feel myself wanting to cry, that’s when i knew i couldn’t keep doing that to myself. it wasn’t ever worth it.
I honestly to this day don't and probably never will understand how somone can take a person who is beyond broken on ever level including emotionally and spiritually and pretend to love and use them knowing that there just going to break that person even more. all while the used one only wanted to love and care for that other person and is now once again giving up and falling back into the dark spiral still hanging onto the slightest bit of hope that one day they will find the right one who will end the suffering by showing the used one what true love really is, Until that day comes if it ever does ill be here in my shell waiting perhaps forever...
I've told myself so many times to stop making homes out of people because I'd only end up cold and alone when they leave. But i was so sure you'd stay.But you didnt and now I'm feeling homesick for a home that was never even mine to begin with.
Why do you have to show that smile? I know what you're thinking. Your greasy laugh. This is your perfect scenario. Keep that smile, I don't mind it. It hurts you more anyway. So prideful. Does your laugh have to change too? Are we shooting this right? If it doesn't go according to plan then we can do this again. You look uneasy. I don't have the upperhand here, so fix your smile. Do this how you've always done it. Like how all my passions are your objects of envy. How my fears are places we need to explore. Did you like me or not? Pick a side, your mask is crooked. It's getting hard for you to keep this up...i think I like this game now. Your stance looks off, everything is fake. You probably rehearsed all month. I almost feel bad...but then i lose, right? Your perfect scenario. I don't know what you were expecting. Just finish your lines. You should at least have the decency to show crocodile tears. You have all the time in the world. If your run out, just ask for more. If it's for you, the world would grant you even that, right?
"And when he tells you you ain't nothing, don't believe him And if he can't learn to love you, you should leave him 'Cause, sister, you don't need him And I ain't trying to gas ya up, I just call 'em how I see 'em." -Pac