Why do you have to show that smile? I know what you're thinking. Your greasy laugh. This is your perfect scenario. Keep that smile, I don't mind it. It hurts you more anyway. So prideful. Does your laugh have to change too? Are we shooting this right? If it doesn't go according to plan then we can do this again. You look uneasy. I don't have the upperhand here, so fix your smile. Do this how you've always done it. Like how all my passions are your objects of envy. How my fears are places we need to explore. Did you like me or not? Pick a side, your mask is crooked. It's getting hard for you to keep this up...i think I like this game now. Your stance looks off, everything is fake. You probably rehearsed all month. I almost feel bad...but then i lose, right? Your perfect scenario. I don't know what you were expecting. Just finish your lines. You should at least have the decency to show crocodile tears. You have all the time in the world. If your run out, just ask for more. If it's for you, the world would grant you even that, right?
"And when he tells you you ain't nothing, don't believe him And if he can't learn to love you, you should leave him 'Cause, sister, you don't need him And I ain't trying to gas ya up, I just call 'em how I see 'em." -Pac
Did I say something wrong? Did you hear what I was thinking? Did I talk way too long when I told you all my feelings that night? Is it you? Is it me? Did you find somebody better? Someone who isn't me, 'cause I know that I was never your type Never really your type Overthinking's got me drinking Messing with my head, whoa Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I'm sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a b r o k e n h e a r t I guess that sometimes good things fall apart Jon Bellion, Illenium
I wish that you could stay I guess I'm always waiting for you to come back and call my name like we both still felt the same I'm miserable, and I don't want you to know [Moose Blood-Talk in your sleep]
“When we invest ourselves in deep personal relationships, we take a risk. We could always get hurt. The more we expose ourselves, the greater the potential for pain. No one can hurt us like someone we’ve trusted with our heart. No one.” [saw on tumblr]
There's this guy at work that I have known for almost 3 years now. I always thought he was cute, but then I started seeing someone (also from work).Then after the company's Christmas dinner this guy came up to me & grabbed my hand. I told him to get his friend some water as he had just thrown up. (They were all drunk and I was the DD) I didn't really think much of him trying to hold my hand, despite me being in a relationship with someone else. After a few months my SO and I went to an OpenAir concert where this guy from work was with his friends. At first I didn't even realize what was happening around me as I was pretty drunk myself. But then at some point I realized that he was holding my hand again. I tried holding it up to check if maybe he would let go as I was not "holding it back". Didn't work. & didn't really care at that point. A few months back we were at a festival where we ran into him as well, but nothing happened there. Except for the part that I realized that I might to start crushing on him.Another few months go by and the next christmas dinner was happening. I was no longer in a relationship, but we remained friends. At this point we hadn't really told anyone yet about the break up. So we sat at the table with this guy and we told him. & I also told him that no one would get mad anymore, if he should try to hold hands again. He had his thinking look on his face & after a moment he said: "I can't promise anything."So after the dinner we all decided to go to the bar. By now everyone was pretty drunk. I started to cling onto him & since he didn't seem to mind I continued doing so. I hooked my arm with his, gave him random hugs and by the end of the night he even hopped on my back. This was the point where I started crushing on him hard.I started to ask him to have a drink, to hang out, to go drive around, to the movies, etc. pretty much any idea I could come up with to spend time with him. To my surprise he almost always said yes, if he said no it was because he already had other plans, but always "made it up" to me by setting up another time.During this time he spend a few weeks abroad for work. On the second business trip he added 2 weeks of vacation. Before he'd left for the second trip we talked about his vacation and he was telling my about him going to NYC for a few days. Turned out that he was going alone, so I saw my chance and jokingly said I could join him as I had already put in my vacation days.So a few weeks later I met him in NYC. We had a few amazing days together, but on the "love-side" nothing really happened. Although, he was always really caring about me.