~Awkward moment:~When he thinks you're tryna play 21 questions but all you know is to ask questions to keep conversation and then he points it out... ~Him: yo is you tryna play a game or sum?? ~Me: of basketball? (he was playing basketball earlier) ~Him: no i just came in i mean t or d or 21 questions. ~Me: oh i was aboutta say "nah i suck" lmao and honestly, just tryna keep conversation, but yknow, i cant people to people so its kinda hard peopleling. ~Him: what. ~Me: i suck at texting ok. ~Him: lmao.
If anyone in my family ever gave me an actual compliment on the poetry I write, it would be a miracle I just need to be around people who love coffee and poetry, and words and self expression and creating art. Because no one in my family is like that at all
I feel so awkward when someone comments on something I have posted. I never know what to reply and if they might take it the wrong way. I am just an awkward person in general so I apologize if I make anyone feel awkward.. I feel like I was born with a curse of awkwardness. Now I feel like I am rambling... I kinda don't want to post this but I feel like whoever is reading this just needs to know. ugh!! I am so unsure what I need to say now. Im awkward and goodbye. Thank you for reading it if you did.
“I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most five year old children can express their feelings better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.”
Progress Report on Parking Lot Boy Because i know you're all just dying to know and care so much On the feild trip yesterday he talked to me three times. Sat in front of me on the bus and turned and stared at me. Then at Taco Bell he asked me how the play was and told me our dads are best friends. (SIDEBAR: HOW WOULD HE EVEN KNOW THAT. LIKE WOULDN'T HE HAVE TO TALK TO HIS DAD TO FIND THAT OUT?! HELP ME ANSWER THAT) Today I was walking out from school and I saw him standing there and he came up to me and was like hey so tomorrow and ME BEING THE IDIOT I AM REPLIED IS friday AND HE JUST SMILED AND WAS LIKE YEAH HAHAHAH and then proceeded so I was wondering if you wanted to go to the Grand Stands with me and a couple of friends. AND I HAD NEVER HEARD OF IT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A FOOTBALL THING SO I WAS LIKE I've never heard of that what is it? AND THE KID REPLIES WITH It's a haunted place. SO ME NOT EVEN THNKING JUST AGREED BECAUSE THE LORD AND HIS PARENTS BLESSED HIM WITH THE SMILE EYES HAIR FACE BODY EVERYTHING I DO NOT DO WELL WITH HAUNTED THINGS. I ALWAYS SCREAM. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS GOING TO WORK AND I JUST PRAY I WON'T PEE MY PANTS. Also I was explaining to my friends how excited i was and I was jumping for joy bc seriously this kid is amazing and THE ENTIRE TIME HIS FRIENDS WERE WATCHING ME AND COULD HEAR ME AND WERE MAKING FUN OF ME SO I PRAY TTO GOD THEY DON'T TELL HIM. THIS IS SO AWKWARD. WHY. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE WEIRD.
You guys wanna hear a cute story that happened to me? Probably not but I'm gonna tell it anyway So I'm the new girl at a school so I don't know anyone and no one knows me. Tomorrow all the senior english classes are going on a field trip and my government teacher wanted a list of the people who were going to be gone on the white board so I wrote my name down. After school was out I get a notification some kid was following me and I had no idea who he was. Couple days go by I've seen him around a few times or whatever and figure out his sisters in one of my classes. So today I was walking home and I could see him and his sister and his friend ACROSS THE PARKING LOT. I didn't think they saw me and I just kept my eyes glued to my phone and a few seconds later I HEARD MY NAME BEING CALLED SO I TURNED AROUND AND THOUGHT I WAS INSANE SO I TURNED BACK AROUND AND HE RAN UP TO ME AND WAS LIKE Hey you're nicole right? and I was like yeah and you're.... AND I COULDNT REMEMBER HIS NAME so he was like Hayden I followed you on insta. We should do something sometime and get to know eachother. HE RAN ACROSS THE PARKING LOT JUST TO SAY HELLO. THAT WOULD BE A GOOD FIVE MINUTE WALK FROM WHERE I WAS AND THE ENTIRE TIME HE WAS BLUSHING WHILST TALKING TO ME SO IF THATS NOT THE CUTEST THING EVER THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS