I get back into bed, moving calmly and efficently now, lie on my
stomach, and pull the covers over my head. Inside the dark blanket
tent, I fold the pie plate in half, press it flat, bend it back and
forth,back and forth, like I'm following a recipe,back and forth
until the fold is crisp. When I rip it, it gives way eaisly and I
have two neat halves, each with a jagged edge. I lay my index
finger lightly on the edge of one half,testing it. It's rough and
right. I bring the inside of my wrist up to meet it. A tingle
crawls across my scalp. I close my eyes and wait. But nothing
happens. There's no release. Just a weird tugging sensation. I open
my eyes. The skin on my wrist is drawn up in a wrinkle, snagged on
the edge. I pull it in the other direction and a dull throbbing
starts in my wrist. I hold my breath and push down on the piece of
metal. It sinks it neatly. A sudden liquid heat floods my body. The
pain is so sharp,so sudden, I catch my breath. There's no rush, no
relief. Just pain, a keen,plusing pain. I drop the pie plate and
grasp my wrist with my other hand, dimly aware even as I'm doing it
that this is something I've never done before. Never tried to stop
the blood. And it's never not worked.
Cut
by: Patricia McCormick
This book is a really good book about a girl who cut's her
self..it's very real-life.